Day four

10/8/10
Well you two, I slept much better last night than I have for about a week. I think it has a lot to do with my conference at work almost being over. Last thing to wrap up.... Fashion show for you Boog! You and mommy will get there about a half an hour after me but it should be pretty cool!
So I have to have surgery on my vocal chords again next Friday. I think it will be number 45 or 46. I don't really keep track but I know Grandpa does.
It should go pretty smooth, as that is what I am used to.
I do think about my condidtion (RRP) more than I used to though. It used to be just a little set back for me but now with Mommy, and you two I think a lot about what it could turn into. I don't know if this is good to share with you both, not knowing what age you read this, or Mommy reads it to you but I am scared this could turn into something terminal and I won't be around to watch you two grow up. I don't think that is likely, but it is a possibility, and I know it has happened to other people with the same condition.
This brings me to another point. For some reason I always think worse case scenario. It never affects my ability to make the right decision, but it does drive me crazy. I really wish I could just make decisions some times without worrying about what "might" happen. I guess the good part about it though is the fact that I usually feel pretty good about how to handle a situation if it does not turn out good.
Ok.. enough downer stuff. Day off tomorrow and get to pick up new bike today!!!! Love you both. Dad.